Surgery

Hi, Been a while since I have been on here. Had surgery in January. Needless to say was everything I unfortunately feared and much of the reason I so strongly fought against it. Recovering now, think my right shoulder/upper arm has a pinched nerve now as the upper arm is still numb including the armpit. It feels as if a massive quantity of lidocaine was administered and someone forgot to turn the pump off! I would have thought if it were just an irritated nerve it would have subsided, but it is still numb. Very painful in the parts around the numb part as a mix of ice/heat are there when you touch it. I have limited movement which is getting frustrated. I wake up every night with throbbing and intense loud ache. I do also have surgery related pain in front right chest and my lower right rib. I also have 4 holes in my back/right side which are healing well and causing no problem other than some mild itching. As usual, I am impatient and ready to get out in the world and start living again. I do believe the Lord is trying to teach me to slow down and heal and take what he gives me one day at a time but it has proved a little harder than I imagined. Having a lot of fun with the children now that I am starting to feel better and able to help them with their schoolwork more. I am very proud of the way they have stepped up and helped me around the house with chores and added responsiblities now that I can not even lift more than 5 pounds. I see the Dr this coming Monday and will be interested to see what he has to say not only about my returning to work, but also about my right arm!, which was not like this before surgery! And also results. I am excited to see what the report of man is and I know fully report I will believe the report of the Lord. I can't wait to share what happens next in my life. I feel as if my life is not my own, and I am just watching it. Oh wait- MY LIFE IS NOT MY OWN :) It is God's. I am however playing quite a part of it. Hoping I am learning and passing the tests that He is giving me. I hope you have been well. I pray you have as many beautiful friends and family as I have been blessed with. God sure is showing me that during this time of trial and adventure. I have probably never felt so loved. And you know recently I had asked him that, to show me (I must be from Missouri) just how much he loved me, that I would really know. And true to form, my gracious Lord, wow how he showed himself faithful. (brings tears to my eyes). *Well blessings to you, and hoping you are happy, healthy and safe. Remember to pray for those who may not be, as there are many in this world. Reach out to your neighbor and to someone who you struggle with as we remember how easy it is to be kind to someone we love, yet the difference lies in how we treat those who we struggle with. Much love