Quiet reflections

As the end of the year arrives.. time to reflect back on changes in my life. Quite a few. Adoption is closer. Change of location. A different school setting for one. A new dog found us. Some ongoing family issues that need resolved in a Christ-like manner. Been an interesting year. I am blessed for sure. I hope you see that you are also. *I got some news today that I didn't want, but really knew was coming. Apparently, when I sleep my oxygen sat's go down to 83%. That is not very good. Around 70%, you are basically circling the drain about to go down. For those who aren't medical 98-99% is ideal. 100% is the best you can get. That really explains A LOT! I really have felt over the last few years that I am having trouble with clear thinking, being able to process things like I used to. I would try to explain that to some, and I always felt like I wasn't really understood on that. I have felt like I have been very fatigued and just figured because I was overweight and hadn't been exercising much. Now, I have the reason to explain these things. The tissue in my body, brain included has not been getting enough oxygen when I lay down, which causes me to be tired and try to lay down more, which causes more hypoxia. Quite the cycle- one I do not want to be a part of. The Dr. office called today, and gave me the results and said I would have to wear oxygen now at night. They said if they don't call you in a week, meaning the home health care people), then call us back. Well, they called less than 1 hour later. They will be out here later today to do what they do and bring oxygen etc. Good thing in the last month the hubby has not smoked in the house once. Unique isn't he? God, how he plans/times things so well. How many years I have asked, pleaded, cajoled, yelled even to please smoke outside and he wouldn't. Well, in the last month he has by himself, smoked outside, the change of location helped for sure, but he did this himself. And then 1 month later, we find out I must have oxygen at night. You can not have open flame by oxygen, so it is imperative that he not smoke around the O2 tanks. And I have not had to say anything about it. I have mixed emotions on this and at one point thought I was going to tear up /cry due to this finding. I mean, seriously, home health? ME??? Just doesn't make sense, doesn't fit. I am not to be on this road but I am. I felt a pity party sneaking up on me. But I can not live there long. True, it is another step in a direction I do not want to go, however, I do know how good I felt in the hospital being on oxygen and no one really seemed to appreciate that. At least in my mind, they didn't. So, I am looking forward to how good I may feel starting today. They also found I have excessive limb movement in arms and legs and said if I was symptomatic, as in waking up a lot due to leg/arm movement/pain etc that they would run some blood tests to see if I had restless leg syndrome. I said no, just wake up a lot due to flipping and tossing and turning trying to get the back to not hurt. I do have a family member who has restless leg syndrome and it doesn't sound fun. Hope you all had a good 2014. Looking for a better 2015 for all of us. Remembering God is in control. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Much love,