Status quo-

Been a while since I have written. Been busy and I think somewhat depressed. Not even really know what over, as I have NO reason. A lot of changes lately, not so much with my health, but more with my life in general. Saw the Dr. in St. Louis. He said everything was status quo- meaning lung function still the same! Yay! I really had a feeling that was going to be the answer. I did have a cyst pop about a month before that and gave me a lot of bad chest pain/lung pain and shortness of breath. Missed a day of work. Don't think I have had one pop this week, but boy since Tuesday pretty decent lung pain and sporadic shortness of breath. Really frustrating. It coincides with the menstrual period again. Took pain pills for 3 days, one night couldn't sleep due to the hurting. Now it is there, but is intermittent. I can't work and take the pain pills so just have to suck it up the best I can. I met a wonderful LAM patient in St. Louis who I have been wanting to meet for a while! Such a lovely, caring, knowledgeable person! Didn't have much time but she was sweet to come to my appt. with me. Still struggling to find forgiveness with a child molester who, well I can't go into details now, but just really need prayer for this. I know I am the one caught if I can't find forgiveness. Need wisdom and discernment how to raise this child too. Life again seems too busy. I want a vacation- think I need one, and afraid I won't get one for quite sometime. The kids sooooooooo want to go to Florida.. I think I want to worse than they do.