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Today I began blogging. I love to write and this is a great outlet. My reason for doing this is the doctors believe I have LAM- Lymphangioleiomyomatosis. 24 letters long; not sure why I felt the need to count it, but I did. Basically, it means that I have a rare incurable (at this time) disease that allows the growth of cells that take over the good lung tissue and cause me to have chest pain and shortness of breath. I am told I have a mild case. Every case is different, but they mostly all have the same thing in common, the recipient is a woman. The last webpage I remember reading on it said only 10 men in the world are diagnosed. They believe it is related to estrogen. It is a progressive disease and right now there is no cure. The 5 stages of grief I keep telling myself I am not going to go through, however I find myself somewhere close to the anger stage lately. I think I must be in denial still, although I keep wanting to deny that I am in denial :) I call it shock. I keep thinking I will wake up and life will be as it was before the day I checked into the ER for 3 days of chest pain. I have skipped the bargaining for right now and have jumped right into the depression stage. They say in this stage you may have regrets for time not spent enough with loved ones. I am blessed since we homeschool I completely feel I have given my children all of my time that I can and I am extremely grateful to God for having me choose that path. Welcome to my blog, I'd like to invite you to pull up a chair, grab a cup of coffee and join me on this path not well-traveled, if only as an observer. I'd like to think my love of writing will show through and you will feel as if you are right here with me, cheering me on, being there for me and growing with me in this journey and in return I can hope to encourage you, make you laugh and cry, help to think about what kind of legacy you want to leave. Welcome friend!